Movement

You all know that Shiva Nata has been a passion of mine ever since I first heard about it and started practicing it.  From the very beginning, I knew that I wanted to get to the point where I could teach it.

I didn’t know when I would be ready to make that happen, but I knew it would happen.  Some time.  In the future.

When I first met Havi last summer, she assured me I could start teaching right away.  Really?  Hmm… clearly, I wasn’t quite feeling like I was ready.  At that point, I was in a hard place in my practice, and from the vantage point I had in the depth of my stuckness, I couldn’t see how I could be of any use to my eventual students.  Still, she said she’d come to my class once I’d have started teaching – that was powerfully motivating!

Fast forward several months to this past January, when I’ve had the chance to spend time with Havi again at her wonderful Destuckification retreat.  She reiterates that I don’t have to wait after anything to get started teaching Dance of Shiva.  This time, I feel like I am indeed much closer to feeling ready to do it.  Still, there are all those questions floating in my mind – but how? where? who? and I can’t even talk about it in a semi-coherent manner, so how would I go about telling people they have to try this? etc. – and no answers, of course.

Since then, shifts and transitions have happened.  Things have moved.  But I was still there with my questions and no answers.  Teaching Shiva Nata was still something I’d do at some indeterminate point in the future.

Until that one day two months ago when everything snapped into place

I am involved in the storytelling world, and I knew I wanted to offer our local storytellers to teach them Shiva Nata – it was one of those “one day” plans.  It just so happened that that day, I realised I didn’t want to wait any more: I had to make that plan move forward.  I didn’t want to wait until their last meeting before the summer break because I wanted something to happen before next Fall.  At one meeting a month, I could see the summer break coming extremely fast!  So I had to think fast and quickly make up my mind because they had a meeting coming up a few days later.  If I missed that opportunity to go and present the idea, I’d have to wait for another month before anything happened.  I was scared, but the thought of a one month delay was not comforting.

I had reached the point where I had to do something even though I was scared.

That was big.  You see, I was completely scared because teaching Shiva Nata to those storytellers was the only possibility I could see.  As long as it was just an idea, it had some potential, but if I presented it and it turned out they weren’t interested, I was left with nothing in front of me.  Hey, what happened to that huge shift in perspective?  Well, it still holds true.  Yes, the idea of retaining the potential in that opportunity and not risking to get confirmation that it wouldn’t work was tempting… and yet, I didn’t let it stop me.  I went ahead and did what needed to be done for me to be invited to talk about Shiva Nata and do a demo at their next meeting, a few days later.

And this is when the magic happened

As soon as I have sent that message letting that group know I wanted to go to their meeting to present my offer, my mind started reeling with ideas.  Other people I could contact, other places I could teach, ways I could make this thing happen.  The storytellers were no longer my only option.  And the meeting hadn’t even taken place yet!

Simply, making that first step opened the way for ideas to come forward.  It told my mind I was ready to get this thing moving, so the ideas could now flow.  And some of the ideas I had were hugely ambitious, yet nothing seemed too big.

That was amazing.

To make a long story shorter

I became a Shiva Nata teacher one month ago, when I taught that free introductory class I had set up for the storytellers.  I loved it, and can’t wait to do it again.  I don’t have a regular thing going on yet, nor have I sent proposals to the other people and places I have in mind.

I haven’t stopped dreaming, though.  And, just as importantly, I’m still baby-stepping my way towards making this thing happen.

Also, through this experience I have learned – in such a way that now I know deep down inside – two things:

One, I am a Shiva Nata teacher.  (Wow!  I said it out loud!  And I believe it.  And it feels good.  Wow.)

And two, when I don’t have all the clarity I think I need before I can move forward, I can make the smallest of steps and that will light up the next part of the path.

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19 Responses to Movement

  1. Elizabeth says:

    You are a Shiva Nata teacher! And that is so fantastic!

    It is amazing how that small step provides light that helps illuminate the next steps. It is also amazing how often I forget that.

  2. Yay you! Funny how taking action opens our minds to new and bigger possibilities.

  3. Magic! Movement! Alchemy! Tiny shifts in perspective! This is what storytelling is all about! How exciting that you get to combine this with Shiva Nata. I really wish I lived nearby right now so I could take your next class, whenever it happens. But already you’ve inspired me to start back up with Shiva Nata again. I let myself lapse. See, even now you’re teaching us.

  4. Sarah B says:

    Excellent post! I bet you’re a wonderful teacher. And I am already looking forward to the day when I can come to one of your classes :)

  5. Josiane says:

    Oh, it’s so sweet to see you all here! It feels like there’s a party in my living room, or something – better yet, a party in a Shiva Nata studio! :) Thanks for celebrating with me!

    @Elizabeth: It’s so easy to forget! Especially since I knew it without really knowing it, you know? I sure hope that I’ve now learned it deeply enough to remember.

    @Slackermomspeak: Yes! I was completely amazed to see how big the new ideas were.

    @Kelly: Yay for inspiring you! There are many ways to teach Shiva Nata, just as there are many ways to practice it, and it’s all good! You will come and visit, won’t you? When that day comes, we’ll make a class happen – and we can do the same when I finally go and visit you!

    @Sarah: So lovely to see you here! Thank you for the kind words. It would be sweet to have you in one of my classes, either here or… in your corner of the world? That would be awesome! I think from now on, I’ll be trying to fit a Shiva Nata class everywhere my travels take me. :)

  6. You’re a Shiva Nata teacher!
    You’re a Shiva Nata teacher!
    You’re a Shiva Nata teacher!

    Ok, I just had to get that out. With one huge yaaaaay! Because you totally deserve it.

    Time for cake?

  7. Deleilan says:

    It’s so wonderful to read how excited you are, you Shiva Nata teacher you! :-)
    Believing in something enough to be able to state it out loud, for both yourself and others to hear, is a huge step. Be proud, you did it!
    As always, you’re an inspiration. I very much look forward to your further adventures in Shiva Nata teaching!

  8. lucyviret says:

    Oh sweetie, this is completely awesome. A Shiva Nata teacher! Can I come and take a class with you? Pretty please?

    Weirdly enough, I did a little bit of it today, for the first time in months. It was good! My arms ached for a bit though. *grin*

  9. Josiane says:

    @Fabeku: Oh, dear Fabeku, I knew I could count on you to bring the cake! Caaaaaaaaake tiiiiiiiime!

    @Deleilan: Thank you for following along! Every time you say I inspire you, that makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I love it!

    @Lucy: You can come any time you want, darling! With you, Kelly and Sarah, we’d turn that class into a rocking party! Also, you doing some Shiva Nata today? That seriously rocks too! Yay! :)

  10. simone says:

    Ah, tres bien mon amie! So proud of you for being brave and tenacious.

  11. Rose says:

    SQUEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
    You’re a ShivaNata Teacher. So very excited for you and proud of you and it’s just wonderful. Well done for taking the leap.

  12. Josiane says:

    @Simone: Bravery and tenacity – you’re right, it has taken a certain dose of both, that’s for sure! I’ve been thinking about those qualities lately, and how I’m needing more of them. I find it very encouraging that you saw them in me; it will help me remember they’re present in me, even if only as seedlings. I’m not starting with nothing; I have these seedlings, and they are something I can nurture and grow.

    @Rose: Thank you for sharing in the excitement! It is indeed wonderful, and getting to celebrate with you makes the whole thing even better.

  13. Shellyfish says:

    Youppie! I’m so behind, but trying to get caught up, and what wonderful news to catch up with! Getting out of our own way – just letting things happen – it’s so hard to do, but so very courageous! And yes, you are a Shiva Nata teacher!!!!

  14. Josiane says:

    @Shellyfish: Yes, getting out of my own way is often pretty hard to do – there’s so much resistance inside, sometimes… But I’ve been working on it, and have found really helpful resources helping me doing so, so I’m slowly getting somewhere! Also, this Shiva Nata teacher would love to go and teach in your neck of the woods… I’ll make it happen one day!

    @The Doll Drums: Can I just say I love this new identity of yours, miss? Looking forward to seeing what you’ll come up with in that new space. :)

  15. Celine says:

    you kick butt, missus Shiva Nata teacher!

  16. Horray for you! I am going through the same thing- I have been studying yoga for over 10 years and have been throwing around the idea of getting teacher certification, but I’m not sure how I feel about that… and it just worked out that next week I’m going to teach my first vinyasa class to a group of co-workers through our Wellness program at work! I’m scared but really excited, too!

    Congrats to you! When you open yourself up to the universe you never know what will come!

  17. Josiane says:

    @Kris: That’s so cool that you’ll get to teach your first class next week! Scared and excited sounds just about right!
    It’s pretty neat that you have this opportunity to try out teaching; it may help you decide whether you want to go for the whole teacher training and certification thing or not.
    Thank you for stopping by; I was really happy to see you here. :)

  18. neil keleher says:

    Hi, if you need any more resources for teaching the dance of shiva, please check out my website. I’ve got videos with subtitles for movements and positions (all on youtube) and so on. Hope it helps you and anyone else interested in dance of shiva. ps. if you don’t already do it, practice “reading” positions and movements from left to right and right to left. Makes it easier to switch from mirroring the class to having your back to the class. Also makes an interesting switch, even if you aren’t teaching, to read the coordinates from right to left.

    all the best

    neil

    • Josiane says:

      Thank you, Neil, for sharing your teaching tips! I really appreciate how all the Dance of Shiva teachers I meet are all about sharing the Shiva Nata love, helping one another and making it easier to bring the dance to as many people as possible. :)

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