Not totally random hair story

One thing you may not know about me is that I love playing with my hair, in more ways than one.

First, I’m always twisting a lock between my fingers, and I’ve done that for as long as I can remember.  Actually, it’s probably genetic: my brothers and some of my uncles used to do it too.  I also use that lock to stroke my cheek or the corner of my eye: I love feeling the silkiness of my hair on my skin.

Related to that lock-twisting thing, I have developed advanced knot-making techniques – really, I could say I’ve turned it into an art form!  My hair doesn’t need to be much more than 2 or 3 inches long for me to start making all kinds of knots with my locks, from simple to pretty elaborate ones.

Finally, another favorite way for me to play with my hair is playing with its length.  I’ve had very long hair, I’ve had very short hair, and I’m having fun going from long to extremely short without transition.  I’m a short-haired girl at heart, and that’s why I’m using the pic you see in my profile here and on Twitter even though it’s several years old (I haven’t changed much if at all, anyways).

Deep down inside, I feel I am more *me* with short hair.  Yet, it still happens that I let my hair grow long, but I do it for one and only one reason: it’s simply so that the difference it’ll make when I have it cut again will be more striking.  However, I’ve played that game often enough that people around me have become immune.  Seriously!  One year, my hair reached down to the middle of my back when I visited my parents for Christmas.  When I came again for New Year’s Day it was, oh, probably no longer than 2″ long.  No one even noticed!  I had been there for several hours when I finally asked mom if she had noticed anything different, and she had to take a long hard look at me before she realised what had happened.

I must admit that, at that point, the game lost a lot of its appeal. :)

So I decided that I’d stop putting up with the hassle of growing my hair, and I’d keep it short, but… this is what I look like right now:

Yes, I did it again.

This time, though, I’m doing it for a good cause

Last year, my nephew participated in the Shaved Head Challenge, an annual fundraiser for Leucan, an organisation that has made it its mission “to enhance the well-being, healing and recovery of children with cancer and ensure support for their families”. I had heard about it a few years before and knew I’d do it one day, but I had yet to act on the idea.  Though I was inspired by my nephew, I couldn’t join him last year, so I decided I’d do it this year and that I wouldn’t have my hair cut until then.

Of course, the thrill of going from long hair to shaved head played a role in my choice to let my hair grow as much as possible; however, it was not the main reason why I decided to do it.  I was hoping that my hair would be long enough for me to donate them to contribute to the production of wigs for children with cancer who may need one.  There couldn’t be a better reason for me to play this little game one last time!  As it stands now, my hair is precisely the minimum length required for donation, so I’m not sure if cutting it will bring it just a hair (ha!) too short – I’ll see if they accept it on the day of the challenge.

So, you’ve seen the “before” picture.  And yes, you will soon see the “after” picture.

The challenge happens this weekend: I’ll have my hair shaved on Saturday. Until then, if you feel like supporting my gesture and the wonderful work Leucan does, you can make a donation on my participant’s page (please don’t feel like you have to; I’m really only mentioning it in case someone would want to do it, but I have no expectation at all).

It may take a while before I post the promised pic of me and my new hairdo (!) though, as I’m flying out on Sunday and I may post again only once I’m back.  I’m going to Portland and am very excited about this trip for several reasons – seeing friends! attending a Shiva Nata teacher training! playing with mindful biggification and doing Old Turkish Lady yoga with Havi at her new Playground! visiting the city also known as Vegan Mecca!  And that’s only part of the exciting stuff happening around here these days…  More details to come!

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14 Responses to Not totally random hair story

  1. Your hair is going to make the best wig ever. It’s the perfect length–and wavy, too! Surely this is a wig-makers dream head of hair. (You know what they say about the wig-maker’s children?) Hopefully someone else will be able to play with your hair very soon.

    Bon voyage–and bon appetit!

  2. Rose says:

    That donation link doesn’t work for me.. Error 403 access is denied =(

    What a wonderful way to help and with a wig too! Have a wonderful trip – I wish I could attend the retreat too; but alas, England is a little way away.

    Have a fantastic week and can’t wait to see the after pictures.

  3. Josiane says:

    @Kelly: I’ll totally have the look of a wig-maker’s child! ;) Thanks for your kind words and good wishes. Big hugs to you, my dear.

    @Rose: Yes, I’m happy I can help this way. As for the retreat, yeah, that’s the thing with live events: they’re often far away. Maybe you’ll get to go to a class next time Havi teaches in Berlin? That’d be cool!

    @Simone: Oh, that’s interesting! I’m not sure how I’ll react to having my head shaved, but I know that I always feel much lighter – physically and emotionally – when I have my hair cut short. I’m expecting it’ll feel good too, and maybe in a deeper way. So thank you for sharing this; the spiritual, cleansing ritual idea resonates here.

  4. simone says:

    I’ve heard that having your head shaved is a spiritual ritual, very cleansing in some cultures. Hope it is for you my dear!

  5. Shannon says:

    Shaving your head or cutting your hair is said to be about releasing attachment to worldly things… and you’re doing it for a good cause, which is even more exciting. Kudos to you!

  6. Havi says:


    I love that gorgeous photo of you and also am looking forward to seeing beautiful shaved head you.

    The pattern of play is one I know too well — I shaved my head when I was nineteen. And then again at twenty-nine. At this point, no one in my life notices either. Sigh.

    Can’t wait to see you!

  7. Josiane says:

    @Shannon: That’s also very interesting! I’m so glad I talked about this here, because thoughts such as what you and Simone shared give me something to ponder, and that also brings yet another dimension to what I’m about to do. Thank you!

    @Havi: So funny to learn that we have this little pattern of play in common, and that people around you got used to it in the same way people around me did. *smiling sigh*
    Can’t wait to see you too! I’m glad the challenge happens right before I leave, so that you guys will be among the first to see beautiful shaved head me!

  8. Celine says:

    you are a stunner!! so happy to see you in a format larger than a twitter or other avatar thing. it’s a great cause you’re going for and I wish my hair was ever long and/or healthy enough for me to join in.
    bon voyage dimanche si on se parle pas avant!

  9. Ooh, exciting! I’ve never shaved my head. Got my hair cut short-short when I was 23, at a big transition point in my life. Never since. (Am I the only one who finds short-hair maintenance a pain in the ass?) Maybe one day I’ll go the whole hog.

    Can’t wait to see the “after” picture!

  10. Josiane says:

    @Celine: *blushing* Merci, ma belle! You’re very kind. <3>

    @Léan: Exciting, yes! and I’m getting more and more excited as the date approaches! I agree with you, short-hair maintenance can be a pain sometimes; everything’s good when it’s short enough, but it grows and quickly reaches an awkward stage where it’s a pain. Since I’m too lazy (and cheap!) to go have it cut every month – which is one of the reasons I always end up letting it grow – I’m often in that awkward stage; good thing I work from home and don’t go out much! ;)

  11. Deleilan says:

    Gah, I wish my budget wasn’t so tight right now!
    What Simone and Shannon wrote is so interesting; the timing couldn’t be more fortunate! I can’t wait to see you with your shaved head – I’m sure you’ll look even more lovely.
    (It reminds me of the time I had my head shaved for the first time at university. I loved it! I’m thinking of doing it again soon, in fact… No point keeping it long when it’s falling off, right?)

  12. Jessica says:

    That is really cool! I don’t think I would ever have the guts to shave my head. How amazing you’re doing it for a good cause.

    I wish I had the $ and time to meet you all in Portland at the Playground. I fell in love with Portland last year and kind of consider it my spiritual home. You will have an incredible good time there! Can’t wait to hear all about it.

  13. Josiane says:

    @Deleilan: Honestly, having you rejoicing with me is just perfect; no need to do more. I can’t wait to see what I’ll look like with my shaved head too – the suspense shouldn’t last too long now, less than 24 hours to go! So cool that you did it and loved it; if you want to shave your head again, I say go for it! :)

    @Jessica: I have a feeling I’ll fall in love with Portland too… We may very well get to meet each other there one of these days, as I’m sure that’s only going to be the first of many visits!

  14. Oh my goodness! What a wonderful thing you are doing! I have thought about donating my hair at times (haven’t had it cut since September anyway) but I never seem to be able to hold out long enough for it to get long enough (ha!) to donate. Plus, now I have lots of greys and I’m sure nobody wants those :(

    Hope you have a wonderful trip!

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